Nanowrimo part one read

So i got like 35,000 worlds so far in Nanawrimo and I wanted to share some of it with you.

But on another note first sorry I haven't posted blogs lately I've been so busy with riding and just doing school stuff and Nano i haven't had time. But soon there will be more blogs to come.

But so heres some of my story.
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My name is Tauri lynn ramsey and I am eaighteen years old. My sister-in-law and brother live in north Carolina right now. And they are at the hospital because she is in labor. With my niece Lillian mire ramseey. She has been at the hospital for like ever two times before and they kept sending her home for god knows what reasons. And she ened up at home and had to like freakin give labor at home and then my brother had to call the ambulience because she passed out because the pain was so bad. So then my brother had to take her there and stuff and now I’m sitting by the fone waiting and waiting and waiting. I’ve always wanded a lilly in my life and now that is’s coming I’m so excited. I mean they have a little boy and his name is Landen I love him so much I really do but its just not the same. Ever since they got married I’ve always wanted a little girl and now the day is finally here. And I will be going to see her soon so I’m super super excited.
Now she is born and I got the call from them. She is big and preciouse and I love her already she makes everything so much better just by being alive and well and healthy.
I will never forget the day I heard her cry I was so unbaliveable happy. I went to go see them mostly to meet lilly and as I was riding on the plain to go see her I kept getting more and more nervouse. She was already so important to me and the light of my life. I will never forget the day I saw her blue eyes shine. She looked at me and smiled. That’s the only thing she new how to do at the time. And I smiled back and that right there I new we had the most specialist bond in the whole world. See my sister in laws sister mariaha has a special bond with landen and I wanted something like that I wanted a special bond with lilly and that’s what I got and I will never stop thanking god for that I will never stop thankind the world for that.
So kasha always got mad at me because when she would ask me to watch lilly I would always get kinda scared because I’ve never really been around babies that much before pretty much lilly was the first baby I was learning everything on how to do because welll landen was like kinda just all him and kasha because that’s all he new. Cary wasn’t there when he was bornn and wasn’t there for a lot of his early years in life so lilly was my learning tool and still is for everything. I learned how to feed a baby and put on a dipper being visually impaired that stuff is kind of a challenge for me. So when kasha asked me to take care of her I ws really hesatent because I wasn’t sure what to do with her and how to play with her so basically I would put her on the ground and we would play with toys I never understood how much she just wanted to be held and comforted and everything. Like I said I wasn’t really sure what she wanted and how to do it. But now as she got older I’ve learned at lot more and I’ve gained a lot more knololage from being an aunte. So the first time meeting her was pretty much just don’t nothing in north Carolina to be honest we didn’t get to do much because there were to many of us to fint in a car all at once and we didn’t go a lot of places because kasha doesn’t like to go a lot of places and because we didn’t have that much money to work wwith.
SO the second time I met her was when she came home to get bathized riaha was her god mother and some guy my brother new from the morienses. Oh yeah I didn’t menation that hes in the morieanses. Well he is and some guy is her god father. He wasn’t even there for it I guess he flakes a lot or something but anyways. So riaha got to be the god mother and I was very upset about this and kasha new that. She new how upset I was and didn’t care because she always wanted riaha to be her god mother because. That’s her sister and I understood that but for once I actially mad her feel bad. She didn’t feel to bad for long because well kasha is one to not feell that bad about some things but grrrr what ever I don’t care. So any ways I got to see her and hold her the whole time so that was all good for me. It was kinda like in your face riaha and blah blah blah kasha. I don’t care what you think because this is my little girl and I love her more then riaha ever will. Besides she was the god mother of landen I didn’t think it was very fair at all but then again. My mind sometimes still works like a little kides does but what ever. So that time we really didn’t get to see the kids that much either because she always wants to be with her family and not ours like my family is so bad or something. I don’t understand why she doesn’t wanna hang out with us but what ever its her loss I guess’s.

But what I’m really going to wright about is how and what I did with lilly when she lived with us and how we got closer and maybe one day she will look back on this and read it some day and love it and understand what she has done for me. And how she has made me grow.

But first off all I want to share this song with you that I heard from Taylor swift its very special because it makes me think of her as in lilly lol.

You're little hands wrapped around my finger
And, it's so quiet in the world tonight
You're little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So, I took you in
Turn on your favorite night light
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I had, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, and never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And, you're mortified
You're mom's dropping you off
At, fourteen there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But, don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJ's getting ready for school

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

And no one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad get's home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all you're little brothers favorite songs
I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone

So, here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So, I tucked myself in and turned my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even you want to
Please, try to never grow up

Oh, whoa
Don't you ever grow up
Oh, whoa
Never grow up
Just never grow up


Yeah that’s the song called never grow up. I love it because it talks about in a way how she never wants to grow up and how she loves her mommy and how her mommy feels about her and one day I hope even if lilly is not my own kid I hope she feels like that about me one day. I mean I hope she thinks of me as amom one day or something close to a mom.

This is a very rough drafts so i have alot to wright and fix and everything so let me no what you think please and be honest. This is my first time wrighting something like this.

NaNoWriMo/Mockingjay

So I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year for the first time and i'm loving it. Its so much fun to do. And if you guys have any advice for me let me no please. I'm not going to give anything away just yet about my novel.

Okay so I Have to comment on this. I'm not trying to go agenst anyones belifes or anything this is just my oppion here. But my mom is sitting in the other room listening to this thing about the new show on TLC about sister wives. ANd I just don't understand about this. I don't understand how someone would want to get married to more then one person. And how the girls/wives are okay with it. To me its just relaly odd and I dont' understand. But thats my oppion on that remember i'm not trying to go agenst anyone here.

On a nother note I finished mockingjay and I love it. I'm so happy who katness ended up with. I'm not going to give that away incase anyone that reads my blogs wants to read it. And I'm going to say that after I read it. I went threw this like weird funk. I got depressed for a couple days and I didn't really no how to get out of it. I've never really got that upset about a book before but like it just makes me really think alot about life and how I would do things and live my life if that kind of things ever happened to me.

Other then that not a whole lot is new with me. My brother moved out of my house so thats kinda upsetting but not to new because it was going to happen avetally. I just have been dealing with that Lilly I miss her so much. And i'm not to sure what i'm going to do. But so yeah I gotta go okay. I'll talk to you guys in a little while.

Not to slef I need to get a laptop.