Nanowrimo part one read

So i got like 35,000 worlds so far in Nanawrimo and I wanted to share some of it with you.

But on another note first sorry I haven't posted blogs lately I've been so busy with riding and just doing school stuff and Nano i haven't had time. But soon there will be more blogs to come.

But so heres some of my story.
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My name is Tauri lynn ramsey and I am eaighteen years old. My sister-in-law and brother live in north Carolina right now. And they are at the hospital because she is in labor. With my niece Lillian mire ramseey. She has been at the hospital for like ever two times before and they kept sending her home for god knows what reasons. And she ened up at home and had to like freakin give labor at home and then my brother had to call the ambulience because she passed out because the pain was so bad. So then my brother had to take her there and stuff and now I’m sitting by the fone waiting and waiting and waiting. I’ve always wanded a lilly in my life and now that is’s coming I’m so excited. I mean they have a little boy and his name is Landen I love him so much I really do but its just not the same. Ever since they got married I’ve always wanted a little girl and now the day is finally here. And I will be going to see her soon so I’m super super excited.
Now she is born and I got the call from them. She is big and preciouse and I love her already she makes everything so much better just by being alive and well and healthy.
I will never forget the day I heard her cry I was so unbaliveable happy. I went to go see them mostly to meet lilly and as I was riding on the plain to go see her I kept getting more and more nervouse. She was already so important to me and the light of my life. I will never forget the day I saw her blue eyes shine. She looked at me and smiled. That’s the only thing she new how to do at the time. And I smiled back and that right there I new we had the most specialist bond in the whole world. See my sister in laws sister mariaha has a special bond with landen and I wanted something like that I wanted a special bond with lilly and that’s what I got and I will never stop thanking god for that I will never stop thankind the world for that.
So kasha always got mad at me because when she would ask me to watch lilly I would always get kinda scared because I’ve never really been around babies that much before pretty much lilly was the first baby I was learning everything on how to do because welll landen was like kinda just all him and kasha because that’s all he new. Cary wasn’t there when he was bornn and wasn’t there for a lot of his early years in life so lilly was my learning tool and still is for everything. I learned how to feed a baby and put on a dipper being visually impaired that stuff is kind of a challenge for me. So when kasha asked me to take care of her I ws really hesatent because I wasn’t sure what to do with her and how to play with her so basically I would put her on the ground and we would play with toys I never understood how much she just wanted to be held and comforted and everything. Like I said I wasn’t really sure what she wanted and how to do it. But now as she got older I’ve learned at lot more and I’ve gained a lot more knololage from being an aunte. So the first time meeting her was pretty much just don’t nothing in north Carolina to be honest we didn’t get to do much because there were to many of us to fint in a car all at once and we didn’t go a lot of places because kasha doesn’t like to go a lot of places and because we didn’t have that much money to work wwith.
SO the second time I met her was when she came home to get bathized riaha was her god mother and some guy my brother new from the morienses. Oh yeah I didn’t menation that hes in the morieanses. Well he is and some guy is her god father. He wasn’t even there for it I guess he flakes a lot or something but anyways. So riaha got to be the god mother and I was very upset about this and kasha new that. She new how upset I was and didn’t care because she always wanted riaha to be her god mother because. That’s her sister and I understood that but for once I actially mad her feel bad. She didn’t feel to bad for long because well kasha is one to not feell that bad about some things but grrrr what ever I don’t care. So any ways I got to see her and hold her the whole time so that was all good for me. It was kinda like in your face riaha and blah blah blah kasha. I don’t care what you think because this is my little girl and I love her more then riaha ever will. Besides she was the god mother of landen I didn’t think it was very fair at all but then again. My mind sometimes still works like a little kides does but what ever. So that time we really didn’t get to see the kids that much either because she always wants to be with her family and not ours like my family is so bad or something. I don’t understand why she doesn’t wanna hang out with us but what ever its her loss I guess’s.

But what I’m really going to wright about is how and what I did with lilly when she lived with us and how we got closer and maybe one day she will look back on this and read it some day and love it and understand what she has done for me. And how she has made me grow.

But first off all I want to share this song with you that I heard from Taylor swift its very special because it makes me think of her as in lilly lol.

You're little hands wrapped around my finger
And, it's so quiet in the world tonight
You're little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So, I took you in
Turn on your favorite night light
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I had, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, and never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And, you're mortified
You're mom's dropping you off
At, fourteen there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But, don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJ's getting ready for school

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

And no one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad get's home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all you're little brothers favorite songs
I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone

So, here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So, I tucked myself in and turned my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even you want to
Please, try to never grow up

Oh, whoa
Don't you ever grow up
Oh, whoa
Never grow up
Just never grow up


Yeah that’s the song called never grow up. I love it because it talks about in a way how she never wants to grow up and how she loves her mommy and how her mommy feels about her and one day I hope even if lilly is not my own kid I hope she feels like that about me one day. I mean I hope she thinks of me as amom one day or something close to a mom.

This is a very rough drafts so i have alot to wright and fix and everything so let me no what you think please and be honest. This is my first time wrighting something like this.

NaNoWriMo/Mockingjay

So I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year for the first time and i'm loving it. Its so much fun to do. And if you guys have any advice for me let me no please. I'm not going to give anything away just yet about my novel.

Okay so I Have to comment on this. I'm not trying to go agenst anyones belifes or anything this is just my oppion here. But my mom is sitting in the other room listening to this thing about the new show on TLC about sister wives. ANd I just don't understand about this. I don't understand how someone would want to get married to more then one person. And how the girls/wives are okay with it. To me its just relaly odd and I dont' understand. But thats my oppion on that remember i'm not trying to go agenst anyone here.

On a nother note I finished mockingjay and I love it. I'm so happy who katness ended up with. I'm not going to give that away incase anyone that reads my blogs wants to read it. And I'm going to say that after I read it. I went threw this like weird funk. I got depressed for a couple days and I didn't really no how to get out of it. I've never really got that upset about a book before but like it just makes me really think alot about life and how I would do things and live my life if that kind of things ever happened to me.

Other then that not a whole lot is new with me. My brother moved out of my house so thats kinda upsetting but not to new because it was going to happen avetally. I just have been dealing with that Lilly I miss her so much. And i'm not to sure what i'm going to do. But so yeah I gotta go okay. I'll talk to you guys in a little while.

Not to slef I need to get a laptop.

A little but A lot

Hey guyes its been awhile since i've blogged. So i'm going to catch you up on everything thats been going on with me.

So Friday I went to the store and I got some stuff to make a scrap book for my favorite band. I was hoping I would go get to see them on tour this time around but I can because I can't seam to get a ride from anyone I no. What sucks but hopefully next time around. I guess I'm trying to look at this expeirence a good one because it will give me way more time tooooooo work on the book but at the same time i'm really upset and wish I could go. To bad Chicago is way to far away from Wisconsin. Okay so its not that fair but fair to the point were my dad or mom wont take me.

But in other news this books are coming along great. I also went to the book store and got seven out of the eaight books in the pretty little liers seires. I didn't get the eaight one yet because they didn't have it at the time. But when I left they called me saying they had it so I'm going to go pick it up sometime before tuesday cause there holding it for me YAYAYAY.

So i also got the Hunger games books. And all i'm gonna say about them is there so good. I'm alony to chaperter five in the first book and its so good I love them already. I'm not going to give anything away though.

So cary and Kasha are here but there not here that often and don't get me wrong I love them to death but I'm loving the piece and quiet sooooo sooooo much.

But i'm gonna go so I can make some cake and read my book before the noise starts up again. I hope everyone has a lovely day.

Beach

So today I got up and got ready and then Mitch came over right away and we played with Landen for a little bit. We played army guys and wressled and stuff it was so much fun. Then we went down stairs and watched some TV for a like not even that long and I heard Bug Bug (Lilly) get up. So we went upstairs and played with her for a bit and then Mitch took me to the beach.

The beach is one of my favorite places in the whole wide world. I love it there so much. The sand beneath my feet feels so good and the water and its just so peaceful. I just I can't explain how much I just love it and I love the water. The water was so cold today but I just walked in it. We didntgo swimming or anything. I reqorded a blog and then we left cause it was cold.

And now were sitting at his house watching cops and playing farmville. Were such nerds we love this game. I no, I no were so nerdy and theres not any other way to explain that. The game is just so addicting and I can't not play it. But im not like overly obsessed with it or anything so don't worry about that.

Were making pizza its so yummy and I love food way to much.

I think we might go and hang with the kids some more today but I'm not to sure on what were goona do with them. Because its like I wanna spend time with them since they got home but I don't wanna sit and do nothing at home eaither. I no playing with them is doing nothing but its boring tome I like to get out and do stuff and I don't no I feel guilty not being home. I honestly haven't been home in like 3 days expet to sleep and eat. I just I don't really no how to put this because its so confusing on how I feel and yeah. I just I wanna see them and play with them but I wanna get out and about and do everything I wanna do if you no what I mean. GRRRRR this is just so confusing.

So yeah they pizza is almost done it smells really good.
So i'm gonna go and eat some and I will blog more possably tonight or tomorrow.

LAW AND ORDER SUV

So today I am sitting here watching my favorite show Law and Order SUV. I just I love this show soooo much.

So today @Mike Lombardo hacked or somehow go on to @Hayley Hoovers's twitter and I asked him to questions and he wrote me back. I asked him how him and Hayley met cause i didn't no that answer and he said on the internet and I asked him if she's going to go on tour with him and he said no cause she has school. I aslo told him that he should force her to write a song with him lol. But then he got cought so he had to get off. It was pretty cool that my questions got answered. I feel so special and lucky.

So Lilly and Landen are home now and i'm loving it but honestly i'm kinda sick of this crap they don't clean that much and I feel like I do all the work. Because well I honestly don't no what to do.

So um.........I'm really bored and don't no what to do. Or blog about right now. This is kinda hard cause I got alot on my mind and I'm not sure what to do. I'm so bored. GRRRRR They just don't do anything and I don't no how to handle this stuff. Because I don't wanna be mean to be all grrrrr about everything. They just don't do anything. I don't want them to see this and see me complaining to you blog readers. But I just i feel like I need to let out some steam and stuff but i'm not really sure how to let out some steem. This is really hard.

So yeah i'm going to go and just chill because my mind is racing and there is nothing to blog about because my mind is racing so much right now. I don't no what to talk about because its racing so much.

I love you

No i'm not saying I love you guys haha j/k I do love blog readers and comments and everything.

But I honestly feel like people use the words I love you WAY to much. I mean they say it to anyone and everyone. Some one they just met, a person they don't even no, and a new boyfriend or girlfriend.

To me I love you should only be sent to people you no your really love. Like your parents or family or very close friends.

But Maybe thats just me I no i'm really old fashoned. And I don't say I love you alot. But its just I don't understand Why people say it to people they just met or even started dating. To me it means more then O i just met this person so they have a place in my heart its like I care about this person and would be uberly upset if something happened to them. No I on that you can love someone you never met and I no you can love someone that you met that day but I love you and being in love with someone is soooooo way two different things. And I don't think people understand that or even want to try and understand that. Just like today.

I was watching the Tyra show. Because i honestly have nothing better to do and I like the show alot. So I was watching it and The girl on there was saying she wanted to get pregnant with this she just started dating. Why would you wanna commit someone to yourslef like that after two months. And heres the kicker shes only 15 years old. Now honestly guys I no this most 15 year olds don't commit there selfts to someone like that.

And also there was a 13 year old girl that was pregnante. I mean wow why do people have to go and have sex at such a young age? I just don't understand this world anyone.

Ridding and Ice cream

Hey guys.

So i went ridding yesterday and it was so much fun. We did the normal stuff walking and trotting and and did some work on the lundge line. My trainer tickled her foot and, she kinda kicked a little it was really scarry. But my trainer did that so I could learn to controal her when stuff happends I don't expect and, to work on my ballance.

I'm really getting attached to her alot. I fall in love with animals so easy. I no that that's always not a good thing but I can't help it. I just really hope I can lease her because if I can't i'm going to really upset.
Sometimes I wish I didn't connect so well with some animals but on the other hand I love it. I just me and Mae connect very well and I don't want it to end. I just can't wait to the point were I can lease her. Shes just so beautiful and amazing and we connect so well because her personality is so much like mine. Shes shy and quiet she loves attation and is nice. She takes care of people when there scared and shes so will to have fun. Shes a sweetheart and she is spoiled hehe I'm not as spoiled as her but every little girl is spoiled at times. And if you yell at her she feels so bad and wants to appoligize as much as she can't. I no that, you think thats all weird cause I get this all from a horse but I can.

So today, I went with Mitch to take his friend Kyle to his girlfriends house 45 muintes away from the house. It was kinda a pointless drive for me to go but I went anyways. I'm so bored. LOL theres nothing to do right now. SO me and mitch are watching law and order SUV. WOW this and intence episode. But anyways we got really yummy ice cream on our way home. It was so yummy. It had browwnies peaces and gummy warms with hot fudge and vinille ice cream It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yummy I no i said that already but if you were me you would of loved it to.

I gotta go and chill not i'm not feeling to well. I no this blog is kinda lame but I hope you liked it anyways.

Worehead challenge

Hey guys, so it truns out my brother got a job in launch rockets and hes leaving in March. I'm so excited that there gonna be here this long. But I guess hes trying to leave eairler so we will see what happends.

So there going to PA for a couple days and today is there first full day not home and in a way i'm loving the peace n quiet but at the same time its so weird. Like there not that much noise and theres no one to play with. I wonder what its gonna be like when they really leave. Not that i've had them here for ever but they've been here for awhile now and you get use to it. So now i'm gonna have to get use to them gone again. This sucks.

But yeah so Mitch is coming over today and were gonna do the worehead challenge strawburrie17 did. Were gonna see how many we can stick in our mouths before we quit. My goal is 5 so we will see.

Other then horse back riding tomorrow and spending time with lext tomorrow night, i think were having a sleepover. I'm not doing to much this weekend. My dads talking about getting new phones so we will see if that actially happends. I wanna go see that movie case 39 but I don't no if lex will have the money for that. I hope so cause we love thoes kindsa movies.

I'm listening to ALLCAPS right now and playing on the computer and since theres not much to blog about today I will leave you with his.

Remember that everyone is special in there own way and don't judge someone before you get to no them. :D

Army and ridding Bella

So my brother is in millwalkee right now. Because hes going into the Army. So i'm nervose because hes getting a physical right now to see if hes able to get in, and then if that goes okay then he has to pick a job he wants. And hes going to pick a dangerouse job. Because thats how my brother is. If theres a dangerous job that he can do then he will take it over a not dangerous job. I just hope he doesn't get a to dangerous one like being on the front line. But if thats what he wants then i understand because i would be the same way.

I'm so proud of him. Even the bad choices he has made. I'm proud that hes doing something that he loves to do. In a way hes kinda doing something for me to. Because I can't join the army or any servose. So i kinda live that dream threw him. But he will never no that unless he reads my blogs. But i don't think he ever will. Hes not that kinda person to read blogs. Lets just say hes kinda the opseot from me. Hes sporty and i am to but hes like major sporty and not really nerdy heheh. If you'll get what i mean.

But yeah so i'm really proud of him and everything that hes doing for my family and his family. I'm proud that he is doing what he loves but also doing it in a good way to help provide for his family and, that hes serving our country.

So yeah, i'm sitting on mitchells couch blogging. He got a new TV thingy and it hooks up to the internet and everything so if i go on youtube or facebook or come here to blog i can see or do it off of the TV. Its really awesome.

Oh and I also went horseback ridding today. Bella was so good. We trotted for a little bit and we walked around she did so good. It was awesome. We got to bond and it was great because I fell in love with her way more. We ended up having time to let her eat some grass on the hill and it was cute because she ws soooooooooooooo uberly happy and i was happy because she was happy.

Today is my five month aniversory with mitch so were going to watch The Last Song. He got ti for me for today. Isn't that so uber cute. I love him lots.

So talk to you guys later. I hope you'll have a great weekend. And I'll try and blog tomorrow.

chillin

Hey guys. I'm sitting at mitch's house chilling and watching cops. Its okay. Not really much to blog about right now cause nothings to new. I went to another one of my brothers flag football games. It was cool and freezing at the same time.

I got to spend a whole 2 hours with bug but by myself yesterday it was so much fun we got to hang out by ourselves. For some reason kasha wont let me take care of her. I honestly don't think she trusts me or something but w.e. Me and bug bug had fun. We played with blocks and chase around the table and all kinds of fun games. It was awesome to get to spend time with her. I love her so much. But i never get to spend alone with with her anymore because there always busy or so i am. But if i do get to spend time with her its not alone because their there to.

I went to consoling today it went well i guess.

But other then that nothings to new.....so i guess to be continued.

eye doctor

Hey guys so on tuesday I went horse back ridding on Mae and I fell off for the very first time. It was freaky but not as freaky as i thought it would be. I mean shes six feet tall and in a way i'm glad i fell off of her the first time instead of me falling off of a little horse. I hope that makes sence.

So i've been recovering from that. Some how i hurt my tail bone so i've been laying around the house doing nothing.

Yesterday (wednessday) i had to go to the eye docter. That's always been my favorite place because 1. they have yummy candy but 2. I love it because everyone knows me there and everyone is so nice there. But they best part is because i've had the same eye docter since i was three years old so i've come quite fond of him in a way. I mean he use to come out and get me and walk me back to the room and everything. He dosen't do it now but i mean i would like anyone that did that for me hehe. But yeah so i saw him and it was pretty much the normal stuff.

After that kasha picked me up and we went and looked around at the farmser market. While we waited to pick Landen up from pre school. It was his first day.

He loved it. He had so much fun right away he ran up to us and was smiling so big. And he can't wait to go back tomorrow. He's so excited. He said that clapped there hands and knees and he played with cars and drew pictures. So i'm so happy for him. I hope he loves school.

Ok will i gotta go cause i'm in some pain to see ya.

puzzle making

Hey Guys sorry i didn't blog the next day like I said I was going to. I ended up staying another day at my grandmas and they have a flipping slow computer so blogging was kinda a no, no deal. And I also hung out in the pool for more then FIVE hours and chilled and just had a fun time seeing her and everything.

But yeah so the party was great. Yummy food and I got to see my cousins I don't really get to see that much cause were all so far away and everyone is at the age were we are doing our won thing. But you'd think since I only have four cousins on that side we be close right. Thats kinda wrong haha. But i've learned to live with and and just let life move on.

So scott if someday you ever read this. I'm glad your doing what your doing. And i'm so proud of you for going to Japan its a huge step and I no your ready for it and will love it and so not want to come home. To Jenny I'm glad your getting a better job. I mean I no you loved your old one but sometimes change is good. And I no you already no this and i'm super glad your excited for it.

Thats the two big things that happened this weekend. Jenny said she had some big news and everyone thought she was getting married. I mean shes been dating the same guy for a really long time and they live together. Getting engaged wouldn't really change much if you think about it.

But yeah. I got home yesterday and hung out with Dezi, Lexi and Shaun. It was a really fun day. We did so much stuff I can't even remember. But I do remember we walked to the light house and it was cold. And then dezi helped me over the rocks cause it was getting dark n i couldn't see and after that we went to a park and road on the boncy things and the one person who couldn't see in the dark me......could tell what they were it was really funny. But so one of thoses moments you had to be ther. Then there were theses creepy guys that kept driving by to look at us. It was really weird and after about the seventh time we left cause it was strange. Then I went home and slepted till ten.

Mitch came and got me and we road bicks all the way to his house n then i slepted ofr three more hours. So i'm all refreshed and read to go.

But now I gotta go because were doing a puzzle and it looks really hard so I need to stop blogging and go help him.

If theres anything you want me to wright about let me no. BYE GUYS.

Stocc's party

So today I have the house to myself for awhile My mom and dad are working and my brother and them went up to my grandmas early. Me and my mom will be going later today to go to my cousin scotts going away party.

Hes in the Navy and will be going to Jipan for two years. So as you can tell we are in need of a party.

I'm not that very close to my cousins witch is very sad but i still love them lots and I hope hes safe and comes back home safe. I hope he loves it there and comes back with awesome stories and fun advenchures. Schott has been working very hard at getting in to the Navy and going over seas so I wish him well.

In other news. Nothings really new. I hung out with Landen and Lilly - bug all day yesterday and that was so fun. And at the end of the day I got to put lilly to bed and read to landen. (witch wasn't really reading we just flipted threw the pages) It was to dark for me to see the words. But he loved it so that's all that matters.

And Landen went and met with his PK teachter. OMGOSH I can't believe hes going to pre-school. I'm soooooo excited. But of course hes more excited. I guess the teacher is a little older then Kasha. So that means she will be loads of fun.

I hope landen makes friends and has alot of fun. I hope hes really outgoing and loves chool. Because I no school is great when your little but when he gets into middle school and its harder I hope you learns not to care what people think. And I hope he just loves school threw out his whole life. And I hope hes popular but the kinda popular were hes nice to everyone and he has frirends in every group. I no, I no I can only dream for all this to happen. But I hoep. And eaither way I'll love him just as much as I do now. And He'll make me proud in what ever he choses to do in life.

I'm watching my sisters keepper right now. I love this movie I watch it with Kasha and Cary a couple of days ago. And Kasha started crying it was so sweet. The movie is really sad but Its soooooo good at the same time. So i'm gonna end the blog on that note and i'll write you'll tomorrow and let you no how the party went.

The talk and more

So i'm not really sure if i want to have this talk with Kasha or not. I wanna talk to her about me watching lilly bug. But i'm not sure if talking about it will solve the problem or create more problems. So yeah this is kinda a big toppic for me. Because I've never baby sat before. But I no I could do it with bug. Well I should say i've watched her but not for a long period of time. No more then an Hour not even.

But me and bug we have a very, very special bond. We get along soooooo well I don't even really no how to explain it in wrighting. You would have to see it to believe me. But basically she really cries when shes with me. We do a lot of the same things and actions and I don't no we just click. Mitch says every time she see's me her eyes get wide and she smiles bigger then she normally does. But I can't see that so i have to believe him and go on his words. But I believe it. I'm there for her and shes there for me. Even thought shes a baby.

And don't get me wrong me and landen have a special relationship but hes super close to Mariah (kasha's sister0 Like i'm close to lilly. So in the end it kinda works out. But anyways.

The problem. Is I think kasha wont let me watch lilly bug because of my eyes. I feel like she lets riaha do it granted riaha has take care of kids alot of time. But before she started aby sistting she didn't no much like me. So in a way I feel like its not fair. I feel like I should be able to. But yeah I don't think bringing this up would help much anyways because I feel like she'll just say well we really don't need a babysitter or something like that you no.

But mostly I feel like she wont trust me because of my eyes. I feel like she thinks i'm going to let bug get into everything. Witch is totally not true. Just cause were so close doesn't mean i'll let her play with things shes not supose to. It means i'll be more carful and watch her closer because I wont want her to get hurt. I just I'm not sure what to do.

May

So i ended up not getting May but i get to take lessons first and see were that goes and then I might be able to lease her. So i'm super excite about that.

I'm also kinda upset thought because i'm a very attached person. I guess you could say. When I like something even if its a pair of shoes I don't really like to go looking for new things. So i'm worried that someone might try and lease her before I do and then I wont be able to llease her at all.

But i'm trying really hard to work on that. And i just need to keep in mind theres always opportunities around the corrner. So i guess only time will tell.

Tomorrow the only thing I no that i have going on is consoling. So I'll be able to post a blog and write way more. I no some of my blogs are very short but it's because I need to go do other things. And this is ones of thoese days. So i'll write tomorrow.

Lilly-bug and the video

So yesterday I went to this horse stable that my mom found on the internet. And I talked to this lady about adopting a horse. I really liked the horse that I met her name is May. Shes so sweet and nice. I'm going to ride her tomorrow and see if everything goes good with her. And if everything works out i'm going to kinda adopt her. So i'm supper excited about this. I hope everythign goes good. I can't wait to see her soon.

And after that I got home and i played with landen and lilly bug. Then kasha fed them dinner and, landen wasn't eating so kasha got mad and then after all that they went to the beach and I had the house to myself. So i worked on a music video i've been trying to make for a month now but my computer kept freezing. So i finished it and uploaded it on youtube. It was pretty good and I hope you guys like it.

And now today i'm watching SUV my favorite show law and order. Its a marathon so i'm excited cause its really awesome and i love it. Its kinda messy and confusing sometimes but I still love it. Cause sometimes theres true stories and yeah.

So what are you guys doing today? Anything fun? I hope your all having a very lovely day and let me no why your having an awesome day today in the comments.

tons of rain

so today mitch picked me up at 2 and we went to his cousins house and hung out there. We played with his cousin hunter and i drew a picture. Then his mom came to get us and it started raining. I mean it wasn't light it was uberly heavy rain. We had to poll over the car because we couldn't see anymore n the car shook. Agter the rain let up we went and got pizza........it was yummy.

And now i'm sitting here watching law and order. What a not exciting day for me haha :)

blah blah excitement

so yesterday i hung out with my best friend dez. We mostly just chilled around at her house and watched TV and played on the computer. So it ment texting all day for me witch i don't really do that much anymore. Then I went home and went to bed pretty early because i haven't goten that much sleep lately. Due to not being able to sleep at night cause i'm not tired and also getting woken up early in the morning by bug, AKA lilly and yeah i don't mind gitting woken up by her. Shes so cute I can't get mad at her.

And then today I got up got ready watched house with kasha while waiting for mitch to pick me up to take me to dezi;s house again so we could put songs on her ipod. And while i was waiting me and bug had a moment. HAAHHA i was going to load this dishwasher but never got around to it cause bug came in the kitchen with me. We ended up looking out the window and watching birds hehe very peaceful. And she told me I love you so it was worth it not doing then. So maybe i can do then tonight if theres any left when I get home and make up for not doing it earlier this morning.

So then mitch came and got me and we went to dezi's house and just hung out all day and worked on her ipod and now i'm sitting here wrighting this blog.

I got pancakes for supper. And they were UBERLY yummy.

Pluss i've been playing this bubble game on my ipod all day and i'm sooo happy with the scores i'm getting right now i'm at 5000,546 points so it awesome.

I'm going to leave mitches house soon to edit a video i took today so I hope you like it. See you soon.

Taylor Swift MINE

I love the new song by taylor swift called Mine

So basically I spent the day with my best friend Dezi. I love her so much. Shes always been there for me. Even when we were not friends because of some stuff that happened.

I just thought I would say thanks to everyone for checking out my blog and I really love comments so if people want to comment you can.

I no this is really short and kinda not worth posting but I don't no I felt like posting n then dez called so now i'm gonna go cause I need to talk to her about some stuff.

I just wanna say I HATE it when people say stuff and it never means a word.

A little good and A little bad

Nothing really has happened today cept my favorite show SUV is going to be on for a really long time today YAYA i can't wait till three. And I can't stop listening to the new taylor swift song.

I need blog topics so please comment below n let me no what you want me to blog about?

3D fun

So yesterday i hung out with Lexi and Mitch. We played with three D chalk and I posted a video of that on my youtube page. We also just sat around and ordered pizza and talked about nothing the rest of the night.

It ended up storming last night so all the art work we did got washed away so that was kinda sad but whatever at least we had fun doing at the time right?

Today I got up and right away I got to play with bug (lilly) it was lots of fun. Even though there living with us right now, I still don't get to see them that much. When i'm home there eaither not there cause there doing something or there taking naps or just can't play. And when I can play with them I'm not there cause i'm busy doing other things. So it was so nice to see them and hang out with them. Man I feel so guilty when it comes to them. I no i'm not going to be able to see them this much in my entirer life ever again. But at the same time I need time were I can hang out with my friends and do things I like to do. Like vlog and Blog and all that. I wonder if this feeling will ever go again. I just hope I don't regret this feeling/time apart thing So yeah I don't really no what to say on this or even think. I no its kinda stupid but Yeah.

Anyways. I'm sitting with Mitch and hes doing a puzzle while I play on the computer and hes talking to himself its really funny to listen to haha :). And theres nothing good on TV so we gave up on watching that and now were just listening to music on youtube.

But yeah this is just really random and I'm going to go and try and help him with the puzzle.

I hope everyone has a lovely day today :0

Just me

So today is me a Just me day were i do stuff for me hehe. Like lets see i cleaned my house, played with gary (my cat) did some wash and read a little of my favorite book. The truth about forever by Sarah Dessen. I'm actially re-reading this book for like the 9th time already. Its the book that got me really into reading when i was younger, i would read the baby sitters club and the box car childern books but this book got me into reading so much i read it over and over again.

So yeah its supper hot here in wisconsin today. I don't really feel like going outside. it usally never gets this hot here but the weather has been a little weird this whole year so i guess no one really knows what to expct anymore.

Tonight i'm not really sure what i'm going to be doing maybe i'll go hang at mitchell's house and we can finish the puzzle we started.

Lilly and Landen are at the zoo with there mom so i can't wait till they come back and i get to hear all about it from them. Landen loves the zoo hes so big into animals right now its cute. Turttles and the Lions are his favorite at the zoo. But he also likes fish :) Maybe one day he will be a trainner at sea world or something, that would be so neat to see him do. I'm not really sure what Lilly's favorite thing is there but I no she likes it. Maybe kasha will no today and she can tell me when they get home.

Well i'm off to go fold my clothes.

Another blog in the same day

GR so i started wrighting this and then my computer went wack and now i'm typing it again. Good thing i was not that far into it.

So i decided to write another blog to complain a bit so if you don't wanna read complaning and go do something more exciting. But on the other hand if you do read this thank you so much and i'm sorry.

Ok so my brother and his family are living with us (his family = him, my nephew, niece and sister-in-law) So yeah that + me, my mom and dad + 3 cats = one full house right now.

Don't get me wrong I love them living with us. its my brother i mean come on hes five years older then me so we don't fight that much and its so nice to see them more. Because when there not living with us or staying here for vacation i never get to see them because my brother is trying to get in to the army so he will be off statationed somewere and yeah it sucks not being able to see someone you love so much. Like my niece and nephew i love them to death.

But the problem is my Sister in law. Now don't get me wrong, shes practally the sister i don't have. I mean i've none her for seven years and shes married to my brother and the mother to the two most importatn people in my life. But gez she is very sarcastic and i'm not that way at all. I'm a very sensitive but i no how to take jokes. But sometimes when she says stuff i can't tell if shes joking or not. And because of me being VI (visually impaired) I can't see expressions on her face. So thats another reason why its hard for me to tell. But then other hand some stuff she says is just really mean and I don't no what to do to be able to deal with the anymore. Its not all the time she is bad or hurts my feelings but its enough and I don't want to be mean to her and tell her she hurts my feelings because sometimes she can tell but i can't take this anymore. Grrrrr no i no that shes like 3 years older then me and when your close to someone you fight with them but woow this is like insane fighting sometimes and I just can't understand why its her that hurts me alot and why i fight with her more then my own brother. I gues i never will be able to understand.

A little to late then never

Hey guys so i no i said i was going to be posting more blogs now but i've goten way busy i kinda just forgot and when i remembered I didn't really feel like it so in other words i'm LAZY and not a good person when it comes to things like this. So there for i'm uberly sorry and I will try and write more blogs and tell you guys how stuff is going on and what i'm doing in my life.

So about a week ago I took a road trip with my family. It was so much fun. The first two days consisted of driving alot were i acomplished one of my goals standing in tow places at conce i stood between nabraska and wyoming. It was so much fun and i'm so happy i got to do that.

Our first day in WY was lots of fun. We went to the top of the tea ton mountins and i got lots of pictures on top of the mountin. Then we went (we meaning me and my family) went out to dinner at the really yummy fast food place and i got a bull burger (later i found out it was bull and cow so that kinda made me sad)

The next day i got to go rafting with Luke from my favorite band ALL CAPS. Meeting luke was so much fun and I will never forget that day. He was so good at his job and he new what he was talking about and had amazingly fun stories the whole way down the river. HAHA :)

Then we went to yellowstone i've never been there before. And never beening there before ment that everything was awesome. I got to see old fathful that was so pretty and awesome. Me and my dad went and saw this water fall i'm not really sure what the name of it was but it was so pretty. There was yellow rock all around it and he said thats why he thinks yellow stone is named yellowstone because of all the yellow rock. What do you think?????

After that we went to mount rush more. I've never been there eaither but that was so cool. I got to see gorge hehe. Hes my favorite presadent.

In third grade we got to dress up as who ever we wanted and i picked gorge because well i don't no it was funny though. But i learned something new I didn't know that he didn't want to be presadent when he was elected so yeah i'm a little behind on my history facts but its okay i guess because i have a good reason.

When i was in third grade my parents switched me to a special school because i am visually impaired and the teachers in in sheboygan wisconsin didn't really no how to each me. So i started going to a school in Janesville wisconsin and loved it at first but ened up not in the end. But so when i switched school i missed my regular classes like history and math for awhile cause they were trying to find out what i new and what i didn't no. So i never really cought up and they never really made me learn that stuff over. But so yeah i'm behind in some things like spell as well i'm sorry i no this has alot of spelling errors but hoepfully i will get better as blog posts become more common and fun for me to do. Don't get me wrong I love wrighting but its kinda hard to remember to do it when i'm having such a fun summer. So anyways i'm gonna get going and i will be wrighting again very soon. Good night readers and have a wonderful day.