The talk and more

So i'm not really sure if i want to have this talk with Kasha or not. I wanna talk to her about me watching lilly bug. But i'm not sure if talking about it will solve the problem or create more problems. So yeah this is kinda a big toppic for me. Because I've never baby sat before. But I no I could do it with bug. Well I should say i've watched her but not for a long period of time. No more then an Hour not even.

But me and bug we have a very, very special bond. We get along soooooo well I don't even really no how to explain it in wrighting. You would have to see it to believe me. But basically she really cries when shes with me. We do a lot of the same things and actions and I don't no we just click. Mitch says every time she see's me her eyes get wide and she smiles bigger then she normally does. But I can't see that so i have to believe him and go on his words. But I believe it. I'm there for her and shes there for me. Even thought shes a baby.

And don't get me wrong me and landen have a special relationship but hes super close to Mariah (kasha's sister0 Like i'm close to lilly. So in the end it kinda works out. But anyways.

The problem. Is I think kasha wont let me watch lilly bug because of my eyes. I feel like she lets riaha do it granted riaha has take care of kids alot of time. But before she started aby sistting she didn't no much like me. So in a way I feel like its not fair. I feel like I should be able to. But yeah I don't think bringing this up would help much anyways because I feel like she'll just say well we really don't need a babysitter or something like that you no.

But mostly I feel like she wont trust me because of my eyes. I feel like she thinks i'm going to let bug get into everything. Witch is totally not true. Just cause were so close doesn't mean i'll let her play with things shes not supose to. It means i'll be more carful and watch her closer because I wont want her to get hurt. I just I'm not sure what to do.